well, i’m completely and fully exhausted. it’s only tuesday night, and i feel spent. the past three days have been an absolute blur.
they’ve just been full of training. monday we got up, went to breakfast, and immediately after started going into rotations to different places at camp, learning about the safety procedures. we went to the river for a float trip, learned about the trading post, went on a trail ride with horses (my first time ever riding a horse… really cool experience), interviewed about teaching clinics during the week (which i’ll get to), picked up some ideas for rainy day activities, did some low ropes courses, took a pop quiz on the personel policy, learned about the basics of counseling, and went to a show choir clinic. then we went back to the cabin to have some cabin time with the guys. i went to bed around midnight.
today was basically the same thing, except we went to different parts of the camp, mainly the pool and lake. we heard from the insurance guy about non-acceptable risks (we only need to do two things: know our job and follow our gut). then we had hobo dinners, which is when you pile all your food into aluminum foil and cook it over a fire (absolutely delicious) with the cabin, and i went to a clay clinic, where i learned about how to teach kids to make fish bowls and fancy jars. the day ended with another cabin time.
now i’m in the lodge with a couple dozen other counselors because this is the first time we’ve had internet in four days. we were all pretty frantic.
clinics, before i forget, are time slots that campers will sign up for to learn more about a certain topic, such as basket weaving or hip-hop dancing. since o’ve been trained, i’ll be doing clinics in high ropes every week, and archery probably every other week. the past few days i’ve been training to teach other clinics like show choir (ha! how awesome is that?), canoeing, and clay. still not sure how those last two are gonna turn out, but we’ll see.
i’m just feeling really spent right now. i’m ready to hang out with kids and spend time doing things besides sitting and listening to lectures. tomorrow we have five straight hours of lectures to sit through. yaaaayy…\\
i shaved my beard. i was trying out a new electric razor and set the guard too low. thankfully it’ll grow back in a week and a half or something. people have already started equating me to my beard here, so today when they saw me without it, they kept saying they didn’t recognize me. but that’s how it goes.
i’m still having fun. i really am enjoying the experience. i think i’m really struggling with surrendering my will to the Lord’s though. i keep thinking that if only clinics would go the way i want them to, or if only i could get more rest, or if only i could only know who i’m working with, or even if only i whatever, things would be going a lot more smoothly, or i would be much more prepared and camp would go better. i keep forgetting that God knows exactly what he’s doing, not only for me but with every single counselor here. my will is so far below His that it doesn’t make sense to get flustered about anything when it comes to trusting God. i forget that way too much.
Lord, help me to remember that and gain strength, Your strength, from that knowledge. You are good to me and love me, and in that i take refuge. i ask for strength and energy for the rest of this week Lord, that all of the counselors would be on their game and able to retain the information they’re given and to have fun as well.
all right, i’m going to bed. i’m literally falling asleep as i write this.
shout-out to abs and jamie who are sitting twenty feet away. jamie has a mac, which means that she’s someone great, and while i don’t know what kind of laptop abs uses, she is pretty good at paper mache and cleaning it up. props to both of them. yaaaaayyyy camp friends.