tomorrow’s the last day. i get to meet with as many people while packing frantically in between everything and getting my mind ready for the transition.
i was able to meet up with ryan and jake today. it was something i really wanted to do; they’re the graduating seniors i’m closest to, along with markus and bevin, who i’ll see tomorrow. it’s so interesting seeing them where i was a year ago. it doesn’t seem like an entire year… it’s almost as if their transitions have made mine more permanent. i know i mentioned earlier that i recognized a subconscious mentality that after a while in college i’d just go back to high school, to “real life” after i was done with the whole college phase. not so much like that anymore. which is good. i feel like i’m growing up when i see them.
it will set you free
to be more like the man you were made to be.
there is a designer, an alignment, a cry
of my heart to see
the beauty of love as it was made to be.
i found out today that jake likes mumford and sons too. we listened to a few songs on the way home.
and yet it dominates the things i see
seems that all my bridges have been burned
but you say that’s exactly how this grace thing works
it’s not the long walk home that will change this heart
but the welcome i receive with a restart
i just keep liking them more and more as i listen to them. their sound is so full of texture and passion.
these here are my desires
and i won’t give them up to you this time around
and so i’ll be found
with my stake stuck here in this ground
marking the territory of this
you, you’ve gone too far this time
you have neither reason nor rhyme
with which to take this soul that is so rightfully mine.
ah. i love it. i recently discovered pandora, so i’ve been listening to a mix of sara groves, mumford and sons, and steven curtis chapman. jake introduced me to a band called civil wars today who had some pretty beautiful harmonies, so i think i’ll check them out soon.
i feel like i’m avoiding something. besides packing; i’ll do that tomorrow.
i guess i’ll avoid it a little longer. i’m going to read and journal and go to bed. two days, people. two days.
bigger than my apathy
i could have won.